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Buffy, probably most likely what's your definition of obsession? .


It could change any day and for however long it would take to catch up with everything that's aired so far, I might even be single-minded and obsessive about it. But to do this long-range fandom kind of thing - three seasons, four seasons, years and years of being "a fan", of being obsessed by something that can be such a letdown... I don't think I can do that anymore.

The point of escapism is not be even more stressed than you are already. These days I sleep like the dead, I'm exhausted, sick. I want escapism, I want the Doctor saving the world, and True Blood to be its campy self. But I don't want to care if they are in character, if they are well-written, if Moffat's take on women is stone-aged. I want to be entertained, I want to enjoy, I want to be distracted. But I don't want to care.

I mean... Look, for the past five days I had one overdrawn credit card account but enough money in another bank to cover those debts ten times. Did I cover them?

It would have taken two minutes. Two minutes. And yet I couldn't muster the energy, the time, anything. I did it about two hours ago, finally.

If I can't even be bothered to cover my credit card debts right now, how am I supposed to see myself caring for years and years of a tv show?

Date: 2010-08-29 02:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aww. I did not interpret the last question like that. I was "lucky" enough that I have a show to be "obsessed" about, but if not, I would have just answered with my favorite show at the time (since there was not a question about that in the meme before).

I guess it always makes me sad when someone says one does not have a favorite show anymore. But I can see how real life could make it hard to focus on TV. I hope it gets better soon!

Date: 2010-08-29 05:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It's not that I don't have a favorite, I've got plenty. But this "fan" thing is more than merely appointment television for me. It's long-range emotional involvement with a subject and involves some sort creative fannish contribution on my side and for that I usually want a canon that's still on-going. But exactly that kind of canon is risky because one day you have Russkie Business and the other day you have Donut Run.

And currently I don't have the energy to trust so much work on something so risky. I don't feel like I can gamble that.

Although I've got to admit that right now, everything that's on-going appointment television for me is not giving me the right cues to invest that much energy, to make the jump from watcher to fan.

I mean, I don't like Moffat's writing on Who, The Vampire Diaries' Spike-ification of their resident psycho is the plot development equivalent of nails on chalkboard, I can't get into Glee or Community to that fannish degree, I disliked the last season of Being Human, True Blood is just not a good show - and I have little desire to watch anything that looks remotely "heavy" and potentially depressing.

So there's a bit of a pickle here. Perhaps if I found the right show for me, I could stop whining. But that's probably really hypothetical. After all good tv and bad tv has made me extremely picky. I demand the female characters to be Donna Nobles, Buffy's no longer good enough. If I see spoilers of "special episodes with special guest stars" and I see Heroes. It's self-defeating.

And I really should send you some cheese after this whine.


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